Mains preparation

Now I started thinking about where to join for mains coaching. For prelims I had only one option and I just dint have to think. Now that I am free whole day I have many options.

First Decision - 2nd optional Geography or Sociology??
I always had Sociology on my mind because it talk about people, caste, family, equality. Easy to understand. But for civils presentation is more important. Geography first paper felt more to the point. There is no coaching for Socio in Hyd. I have to go to Delhi in that case. Then I saw Geography papers and I felt that these are better because understanding and remembering these things would be enough to answer at least first paper. I spoke to a director fro counselling after that. I knew what he would say. Anyway I went and he said what I expected. " You science people can learn Sociology in 3 months but learning how to answer questions in the exam takes more than 2 years. On the contrary you might take 6 to 7 months to learn Geography but you can pick up writing in one month". So he suggests Geography. Anyway I dint stop my research there. I bought a Geography guide and went through few areas. They were similar to what I read for prelims GS from TMH guide. I found it interesting too. Learning sciences is always interesting for me. I thought I know more about Geography than about Sociology. If I like sociology I can read it after getting job. Its not good to take chance now! :) Thats how I zeroed on Geography as second optional.

Second Decision - Delhi or Hyderabad -
I spoke to some friends studying in Vajiram Delhi and realized that they do not offer regular course before GS mains. Its only a crash course and just for 1 month before the test. Regular course starts in Oct and thats for next attempt. I am not sure about preparing on my own. I inquired about accommodation. I dont like the idea of sharing a room with someone and taking responsibility of each and everything for maintaining that room. What if we do not gel well? I have enough problems already and I cant afford to create one more. I cant stay alone because I get scared when Iam alone. I imagine things and scare myself! :). So hiring a room is no option of mine. Some friend told me about a good hostel there and this gave a new impetus but this is far from a place where mains GS regular coaching is available. Suddenly I though why I am I going to Delhi when I cant attend Vajiram at all. Hyderabad is also giving results though they are not as good as Delhi. So I decided to go to Delhi in Oct to prepare for next attempt! What a looser I'm! anyway its always better to be prepared for anything!

Third Decision - R.C.Reddy or BRAINTREE or ISO IAS?
I did a pretty good investigation about these coaching centers but I did not find those seniors who know about all three coaching centers and can suggest which one is better. Finally I thought I should rely upon myself and not on coaching center. If I believe in my abilities and work hard every coaching center would almost be the same! How much time I took to realize this?! 10 days! Anyway I decided to join R.C.Reddy for all the subjects and classes will start in the next week. I hope I'd shed this habit of thinking too much and wasting time soon.

Finally I am here with all set to start mains preparation. I just have to start preparing like never before.
Anyway, why am I writing everything here?? So that I dont blame myself later - for not going to Delhi or for not taking Sociology..Because I dont want to feel bad about any decision I made. Because I want to know exactly why I decided this and I would know that its my decision and not anyone else's.